I know your existence
is uninterrupted, that you
do not disappear in this
house. But I am always
startled to see you
emerge, distinguished,
and marking our calendar
with red ink—astounded
to find you outside
of the day’s tunnel, again,
your body stirring in soft
feathery moments,
unfettered from the clasp
of Time’s dark tendrils,
slicing grapefruit
in morning sun, and
licking sweet juice
from the blade
of the paring knife.
In an old sepia photo,
set in a wilderness
of to-do’s on our fridge,
you stand on a sidewalk,
before I knew you,
as if preserved
in amber—the path
never-ending, veering
continuously into
the darkness behind you.
And I want to track back
down the cement path
with you, untangling
your small feet
from shadows
like brushwood
along the journey—
the two of us pointed
to an era before this one,
tiny and lopsided but sure
of ourselves. I examine
your posture
in the photograph,
how your butterfly hips
cut a path of newness
before you. You remind
me of a darling little
fledgling, newly fallen
to earth from a tree
you tell me doesn’t exist
anymore. In the
monotonous kitchen
light, I peer into this
four-sided sample
of life—it is easy for me
to isolate who you are
in an moment. And here,
almost midnight;
I watch you suck
a moist wedge of lime
dry with tea before bed,
your face half-
concealed in nightfall,
a side of you
always hidden from me.